Hi sexy people, it has been approximately two weeks since the last update. My bad, been really busy being busy.

It's going to be year 2011 in 3 days? How time flies! Hopefully 2011 will be an awesome year, fyeah I'm going to be 18. Haha. Not like I can't do whatever an 18 year old does. #justsaying

So, holidays. Nothing much. I've gotta admit they're pretty fucked up. Oh well, beats school anytime. Just about one more week and it'll be back to friggin' school for 3 months before the next holidays :( Why does life have to be so tough..

Hmm, so what do you call this. Rough patch? Hell yeah. Fucking straining myself, draining every bit of my energy these few weeks. Quarrels? No, just me disappointing you, letting you down. Sucks to be me. I just want you to be happy. I don't want you to go to bed every night, worrying or being sad. "Put me into consideration when you make decisions" ; I'm trying. Maybe not hard enough for you. I can't help it. Being single and not having to bother about what people feel, just do only. Used to it.

I told you I want to be with you, but I don't know if I can. Why? What if we're gonna have to go through all these again sometime down the road and it doesn't work out? Wouldn't it be much easier to let go now, than to let go later? The further we go, the more hurt it'll cause. I don't wanna see you in pain. I'm really really tired mentally and emotionally y'know? I'm not the strongest girl around, I really do give up easily. What you want isn't what I want, and what I want isn't what you want. How do we go about this. But just remember this, no matter how bad things go, I'll always love you.

For the first time in awhile, she was truly happy.

Then she remembered, she was drunk.

Happy 3 months baby!

Don't worry baby, I won't give up on us. Ever. Faster finish army then we can get married hehehe. <3

Was supposed to have the most eventful Friday, but nah nobody sticks to their plans. Sorry girls, I missed the netball thing :( The rain made me effin' lazy~

My babyboy surprised me under my block with a fake rose in his hands. He said he'll love me until the last petal dies. THEN HE SAID HE'S GONNA PLUCK OUT THE PETAL EVERYDAY. Grrr, hehehe <3

So my Friday night was spent at pondstar! :) Like Jeremy said, it's funny how we used to know all their staff names but not now. Plus our dearest Alex &Desmond are both leaving :( Now we need a new place to drink and chillz. Went down with babyboy, Jeremy, Germaine, Darren, Katherine, Fendi, Nike &Ben. WAAAAAHHHH really miss those bloody days.

Slept fucking well. Steamboat later! Whoop whoop!

The first guy that has everrrrrr bought me flowers on days where there's no occasions. His love gives me hope <3

Hey baby, I think I wanna marry you.